November 22, 2013 by vlittle528
Another birthday, another year passed while my child grows before my eyes. Let’s say it together, shall we? Where does the time go? I’m not sure I would be able to find a parent that hasn’t said that at least once in their child’s life. Certainly not while said child is throwing a tantrum on aisle five of the supermarket or in the midst of an hour-long marathon of “why, mommy?”. But we have all said it. And it is what I have been saying to myself all day.
Both of my children have something special about them, something that allows me to love them even when they drive me nuts. My daughter’s is her heart. She is the sweetest, most loving little girl. Granted, this sweet little girl has learned how to manipulate her loving mommy to giving her pretty much everything…but she always says thank you afterward!
Sometimes I think about those days right before my first was born. My big A$$ belly, my dreams of what was to be. And then even those first few months were bliss. And then I realized the only moaning coming from the bedroom was when I was dragging my butt out of bed to feed my sweet bundle of joy. But one look at that face and I didn’t care. Still….it was amazing that I ended up pregnant with my daughter a mere year later.
My sweet girl was always special. Her first few months were significantly different from her brother’s. Her doting mother was drowning in a fog of postpartum depression that was intensified by her new big brother’s intense dislike for the her and the mom that dared to bring her into his world. She simply waited. She waited for me to be better, she waited for our family to calm, she waited for her brother to love her. She was such a good and quiet baby, so sweet.
And now here she is five years later. She is still waiting for the unconditional part of her brothers love…it seems to come and go when he needs her to come ask us if they can do something. He is really good at being nice to her when he wants to play on the computer and it is his turn. And sometimes, he loves her just because. Because she is too dang sweet not to.
So happy almost-birthday sweet baby girl. You were the missing puzzle piece of my heart that I spent so long searching for.